I blagged a lift from the office to allow me access to the earlier train. I even asked the man at the ticket desk if he could work out a way of making my Farnborough to Reading via London trip any cheaper. He did. I just saved ten pounds and gained nearly 30 minutes. Bonus.
According to the latest census, there are two people expected at tonight's show. I'm not sure if that is playable, and if it is, I am not sure what to do about the running order. On the one hand, if people turn up because of me, I feel like I want to close the show. However, I don't want to be the prima donna that insists on top billing every night. Yet, from yesterday's feedback, if I am on earlier, there's a good chance that an audience won't stay around for the end. Given that I'd be teching, I'm not sure I want to witness that.
This is the world I inhabit, folks, and it's depressing at times. It's also making me feel guilty. Why is the only time I bother with my friends to this extent also the time when there are tickets to be sold and seats to fill. Am I so egotistical that I see myself as worth paying to keep in touch with? I hope not. I think I've the comic skill to be entertaining, though these small audiences of acquaintances seem to make me nervous. Add to this the coffee lack of sleep and a day's inertia at work, and I'm really not at my best. I'm also dangerously close to giving in to my desire for bad food.
Hopefully, arriving in London a bit earlier will make my trip feel a bit less stressful today. However, getting on top of the workload tomorrow will be a challenge. So many delays and interruptions.
I feel like I want to write something new, but there's no time. I thought of a joke last night that I may try out tonight, it involves Charlotte Church, so it's already got a good start. I really need some space to get things sorted, but I have over committed myself. No surprises there, then. I must must sort out the mortgage and similar before I go to Edinburgh. I need a haircut too.
In other news, this train is air conditioned, which is nice.