Today had its moments. I liked the activity that I travelled to London to participate in. I was fighting the good fight with good people and we were 100% committed to making something good. That's worth travelling to London for. It's even worth getting up at 10am on a Saturday morning for. Bear in mind that I didn't get to sleep until about 3am.

Anyway, the bad things about today so far include:

• That which ails me and won't go away
• Trying to make my peace with things that bother me, and only stirring myself up some more
• Parking in Lancaster Gate where neither pay and display machine worked, leaving a note offering to pay if they called me on my mobile, and not getting called... but getting a parking ticket - £40 (or £80 if left too long)
• Getting home to find that someone's abused my email address to send spam, so I've got 420 bounced messages in my inbox
• Having more tantrums and conversations with myself
• Being in the sort of mood where listening to music is annoying
• Being preoccupied and wondering when I get the chance to take a break from it
• Going "out" for some food to realise that really I'm sitting in a Subway shop eating shit, my only meal of the day, while everyone else is preparing for a night out
• Going home to a night in which feels, frankly, like too much hard work

So... it's all jolliness here at Ashley towers. Come and join me. I've got tools, we could really injure ourselves.