So far today the time has flown by and I've been engaged. That's good. There's no brooding when that happens. I have a great wish to be absorbed in what I'm doing. I worry about doing the right thing and about putting myself forward in such a way as would leave me at risk if things go wrong, yet I can't take a back seat and also remain engaged and have a chance of success. So, you just have to jump down the ski slope and make the necessary corrections as you go along.

As far as I can see it, I've the capacity to jump in feet first and screw up, but hopefully I've the capacity to undo stuff too. When I was a kid I once took apart the family's waste disposal unit from the sink. It was broken, but my attempts to fix it ended up in a total rebuild as I foolishly caused more and more of it to come to pieces in my hands. I believe it's still working now after I stayed up that night piecing it back together. Admittedly I put one bit on a bit wrong, but you can't have everything. I was totally engaged and at risk then and it was great.

Better get back onto it.