|Just a bit too much "me"|
At 38 I'm old enough to feel like I'm in touch with my failings and optimistic enough to think I can still do something positive about them, or about life in general. Whether that's true is anyone's guess. All I can say is that there's more to be gained by making things than by destroying them.
I took the photo to the left a couple of days ago, as I think it summarises some aspects of my life. Pictured include:
- Some bits of technical geekery - an iPod and a tablet PC
- DVDs - one is Phantom of the Opera and the other an adaptation of Les Miserables into a non-musical film.
- Glasses - two pairs
- A filing cabinet with some scrabble tile magents on it
- A desk lamp
- A desk shelf that I built myself
How much more "me" can you get. DIY, geekery and musical theatre in one bundle. Brilliant.
In the next couple of months I'm going to be putting a lot of things together. I only do creative things out of a fascination in the results and the optimism that there'll be benefit to all people involved if it's done well. I think I'm way past the stage of making things to prove that I'm an untapped goldmine of genius. Honestly. Parading my ego is not the major goal. It can look that way, but that's not it.
I fully expect to see some people sitting on the sidelines sneering away at me for what I'm trying to achieve. This is something of a shame, since sneering is easy and doesn't add much to the world, where it's much harder to set about creating something.
I will do my best to ignore the modern-day adult equivalent of the school bullies smoking behind the bike sheds. It's easier said than done, but it's the right thing to do.