Here I am off stage after a gig and the gig is still running as I write. It's a lonely feeling on stage when you know it's not working. You can go through the motions as much as you like but if you can't feel it, it is hard to get it to work. I've died on stage before and it will happen again, but this second I feel foolish and have the negative adrenaline rush thing going on. My body is telling me that I'm disappointed. People won't be coming up to me and slapping me on the back. I won't be going home feeling on top of the world. The gig has simply not been my gig. Still. I did what I could and the show will continue regardless.