I'll look back at last night a moment, and then contemplate what I would be most excited about today. The answer is slightly surprising.
Last night's gig was a bit of a challenge. I saw some amazing performances, and saw some top acts holding their own and being extremely creative in front of an audience who weren't giving away freebies, and were happy to implode, just to see what the comedian would do. Some of the acts were looking quite nervous as the gig unfolded. I was much less flappable, Saturday night's gig having inured me (at least temporarily) to the whole "weird gig worry". I even challenged myself to try out some new material, something I'd have been seriously advised not to do under the circumstances.
So, what should I be most concerned and excited about today? Should it be the new material? Should it be the prospects that open up after a gig? Should it be what I saw or learned on stage?
Back when I was as inexperienced as the act who detonated himself and the whole night on Saturday, then the morning after a tough gig I'd be wondering what my future in comedy would hold, and how I could possibly make more of a comedian of myself. I'd be worried about the next booking.
I'm not fussed about the next booking; it's tonight and I think it will be a nice one. Even if it wasn't, worrying about bookings is just the background to my life now, and more of a job than an ego thing.
So what is getting me a bit giddy today is the prospect that my new vacuum cleaner hose will arrive soon. The loss of suction will soon be a thing of the past.
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